I am my boys’ #1 mom.
I said it.
I also battle all the time whether I’m doing the right thing by spending the time I do away from them.
As a family, we’ve chosen that I be a “quantity time mom” at the sacrifice of some “quality time”. I could put my 2 younger guys in daycare and then spend the bits of time we have together in really intense and quality ways. BUT, we’ve chosen to spend our days in a different way.
I spend lots of time with the boys, but there are hours during the day where they are playing at my feet while I’m writing, working, or joining a meeting. I’m not entirely sure which is best, quantity or quality, and I know there isn’t a right answer.
I grew up at daycare, and while I certainly wasn’t scarred or slighted by any stretch of imagination–I always envied my friends that lived lives a bit less scheduled and a bit more in their own home environment. So, that’s what I’ve tried to allow my kids. I’ve conceded that I am not a Pinterest mom with crafts and story time and homeschooling. But, I also wonder if sometimes the boys feel like they fall second to my work.
I don’t do mom-guilt. I shun it at every possible pass. However, this is one bit of life that I roll around like a rock in a tumbler. I wonder which route is best, which route is best for us. But, like everything in life, I’m sure there are seasons, I’m sure there is grace, and I’m absolutely certainly sure there is no right answer.
Are you a mom? Do you “mother” like you thought you would? Did you think you’d be in the role/routine you chose?